So it looks like it’s going to be one of those weekends where my body is all out of sync….I can always tell, as it usually begins like this……It’s silly O’clock….I’ve already been to bed….and got up again as I can’t sleep……I’ll then stay up for a couple of hours doing a bit of work until my head hits the keyboard on the computer…and then I’ll retire to bed again…..(I will also therefore feel like retiring to bed for the following couple of days as my body clock is all out of sync)….but there’s only so many hours you can lie awake for before you know you can’t sleep…

So here I am……wide awake and reflecting on the week. It’s been a strange one because of the Easter days off….and also because we’ve all had the lurgy in our house…..so consequently the School run has only been done three times this week…..(thats’ enough in itself to throw and old bird these days). Easter Monday brought my Birthday too you see…..and now I’m in my 40’s I feel totally at ease to be able to make middle aged jokes and be quite happy at that!

Back to this week though……apart from being a “funny one” it’s also been a rather sweet one…for many reasons….
Now I know most of us are capable of this….and by saying “this ” I mean ……this……wanting more…..and more……of lots of things….More time, more money, more love more fun. It’s not a bad thing to have goals and to strive for what you desire or indeed need, but how often do we look at what we have and realise what a great thing we have?

After picking up the Children today from School and Nursery there was a certain energy from my son in particular that was different to other days. It turns out that they had had “a bit of extra fun”. That came in the shape of some April Fools jokes from their wonderful Teacher, but also from a Neon Stick Glow Disco that had been put on by the School at Adel ST John. What a wonderful wonderful charity…and what fun it brought the Children. During the week they had been asked to bing in an old t-shirt that they could…..(wait for it)…..DRAW ON….IN PEN!!!! The excitement in our house was evident from the moment the actuality of doing such a thing became apparent………The end result….well it was priceless. Finlays work I thought was very good…( it’s not easy for me to simply draw, – never mind draw on a t-shirt in pen, and make it look like anything vaguely recognisable)……(Fin has definitely inherited his Fathers talents here)….but it also brought a certain learning and educational angle into the life of my 6 year old that I wasn’t really prepared for.
“Mummy is the light charity for children with cancer” Finlay asked….
Gulp….
My heart and mind paused momentarily I’m sure when I heard these words…..How did Finlay know about this, and how did it feel like he really understood that children can get really poorly? We do have friends who are going through such awful times like this as we speak….but on the whole we have tried not to dwell on it too much, whilst letting him know in small amounts that these things do happen. So really I shouldn’t have been so surprised….
Thinking now it reiterated what a wonderful job the school do in educating our children who are so precious to us. Helping them to flourish and grow, teaching them to understand that life is full of highs and lows…..some tradegy ….and a whole bundle of other complexities……but also……mountains and mountains of love, excitement, learning, development, exciting challenges, and fun & happiness too.
Balance is key……EVERYTHING in moderation ( including the easter eggs)!!!!

So that was School…..the other experience I had was a rare treat for a facial that I had on Thursday. ( A freebie for recommending my Brother to my gym). I rarely allow myself the time to indulge in such a way, however it was a case of use the voucher by Thursday or miss out……so off I went….thinking that I really didn’t have time for it……
The 40 minutes was a totally luxury…….falling asleep I’m not sure is such a good thing as I then only remembered part of the treatment. However the overall lasting feeling of floating on a cloud was one that I will hag onto and ensure that it’s not another year before I enjoy another one….
People who frequent salons and have regular treatments I know can prefer a particular Beautician. (I do this with a massage or Physio for example)….Maybe they have a technique that works for them, or they have a really firm touch that gets rid of all those knots……Or maybe they have a certain aura that makes them as an individual a joy to be around.

The latter is the one that would make my return to this particular therapist. Whether right or wrong there’s was also another fact that made me feel warm and also quite emotional.
“G” immediately greeted me with a smile. A nice warm, honest and open smile…..she had dimples and a firm warm handshake. I immediately thought what a happy demeanour she had. To me that matters……Arrogance, rudeness, aloofness or any sort of bad attitude is not my cup of tea. “G” was far from this. She was in fact what seemed to be a very kind, natural, calm and intelligent lady. She was also deaf. She introduced herself as that along with her name….and then she got stuck into the most wonderful treatment as I mentioned earlier.

45 minutes later I was sat in the cafe upstairs catching up on some work, when the Salon manager walked in. It was there that I had the overwhelming urge to congratulate her on employing such a wonderful lady. It did cross my mind that life isn’t fair, and how hard it must be for “G” to converse with people at times. It turns out that “G” was turned away from her original interview, but returned for another invitation as she had really wanted to work in this particular salon. So the manager gave her the chance and remarked that she is indeed a very talented therapist.

Maybe I’m wrong to feel that the “cockles” have been warmed a little by this…but in all honesty that’s just how it made me feel. Having any sort of disability, impairment or illness is tough. It could happen to any one of us……or our children…..A friends family member this week has had some very bad news….and even though I’m not close to them, I really feel an urge to let them know that I’m here and that it’s ok to feel that life isn’t fair. It can be cruel and it can be tough. It’s also ok to admit that it feels that way too.

No one can help everyone. We all have our own issues, frustrations, and demands . We have busy lives with jobs to do and friends and families to care for…..but what we can do…..ALWAYS…..EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL is to be kind, decent, honourable, honest and kind. Also…to be appreciative of what we have got.

Bed it seems is now calling me….finally I feel relaxed in the fact that I’ve shared my thoughts…..it’s cathartic for sure…..(and I think may be my new way of getting some much needed sleep)….Night night x